all his crowded thoughts

converged on the frenetic theme of self-loathing. how many different ways could you say "I've got a contribution to make, look here!" followed soon after by "I'm an undeserving no-count no-talent bastard"

Read more

always, when you criticize

ask yourself whether the criticism would just as easily (or better) apply to you. for the instinct for it after all didn't come out nowhere..

Read more

what’s clear

is that we didn't have this warm and fuzzy time together in college. so let's just say we're a group of middle-aged sorrowful people wanting to reconnect on some basis, and let's make that basis our need right now, not some fiction

Read more

Spavined

Interesting wordsThe high water markOf opportunities to use themHas it comeIf so why wasteThe time to look them up.

Read more

our narcissism as a country

having do with our, in the past century, have absolutely NO frame of reference. everything we have done has been VIRGIN TERRITORY. Brand new industrial technical society. It's not like we can look back 2000 years and say yes, this was done before, and we're just peaking between troughs. But of course it HAS all…

Read more

fame as infection

self-regard wrested from self.of course the alternative is isolation. think of conrad's nostromo–horrible didacticism but that image of losing sense of self adrift under merciless sun

Read more

art =

needbe crushed by the need, enfeebled, flee it, bury itor meet it

Read more

Movie: You Will Meet a Tall Dark Stranger

kept you strung along, but it had that kind of static mechanized quality of much of late Allen (last 20 years…) where the characters were ultimately looked down upon, judged on their folly, and simply instrumental to a worked out plot. characters never overflow it, control it. that said, it was very entertaining. Vicki Christina…

Read more